Someone said : "We feel the importance of anything in its deficiency only !" What it feels like if someone whom you loved too much is no more with you today? I miss my mom so badly that hardly I have control on my emotions. I miss her so much because she was the only one with whom I felt secured in any sense, who guarded me from being beaten up by my dad :) (obviously when I was a kid...), who fulfiled my every demands, who used to forgive my every single mistake...
"The heart of a mother is a deep abyss at the bottom of which you will always find forgiveness."
It still thrills me when I looks around 15 years back, it was needed to admit my dad to one of Nagpur's hospital after severe road accident, and my mom was the only one to look after my dad, treatment expenses and all, and ofcourse we three kids. She managed everything properly & strong heartedly even though she was illiterate. It took around 3 years to completely recover my dad from the deep head injuries. During that period my mom was the back-bone of our family.
No matter what day of the year it was, mom used to take me to school on time, bring me back to home. She always protected me from heavy rain, summer and she suffered instead. During my engineering, my good friends(Amol, Rahul, Nikhil) used to come to my home for semester studies, they used to study late night till 3-4 am and my mom used to prepared tea for them except me because I was sleeping that time. She always complained to them that I am not studying properly. She was always worried about my studies. Her dream was that one day she would see me doing a good job. And I am sure if she would have been here today with me, she must have been proud of me. I wish I could have foreseen what had happened to my mom, I would definately have tried to fulfil her dreams.
When we came to know that she is diagnosed with much developed Brain Tumor, I was feeling like my blood criculation has stopped, oxygen supply is abondoned, eyesight blackened. I could not hold myself. My dad did everything possible for her treatment. After first operation, when she was recovering, she loved each and every member of her family becuase she might be sure that now she has left with very few days to live. That time I was here in Pune in search of a job. I was trying very hard to get a good job, so that at least I can bring her some happiness. But you know when some ill starts happening to you, it comes all the ways possible. I got this job after one month my mom died. I belong to those unlucky people who does not met their mother even at the last moment before she died. I feel very bad about it. And today I am the poorest person on the earth because I don't have most valuable one with me, and thats MOTHER ! You guys are lucky.
Mom, I love you too much. I would seek you support everytime. Be with me always.
